Farewell – Shadow Weaver

Castaspella havde ikke kunne foresætte sådan her. For længe havde hun været i nærheden af Shadow Weaver, og som Emeralda havde sagt gang på gang kunne hun ikke komme videre før hun fik afstand.

Castaspella havde ikke fået afstand. Hun havde lukket afstand. Rigtigt lukket afstand.

For a short moment.

And then it had been back to the way it always had been. Castaspella didn’t know what she had thought would happen, but not that it would be just another thing on a list that Shadow Weaver would tease her with. Shadow Weavere knew Castaspella was into her. Castaspella had suspected it for a while, she was not as subtle as she would have liked to be, and now it was as good as confirmed. Yet, it hadn’t changed anything. More endless teasing, more belittling and more Castaspella falling…

You have to land some time.

En forræderisk stemme ville gerne blive, der kom vel andre møder og fester med alkohol. Men Castaspella kunne ikke leve sådan, always waiting and hoping for and oppertunity. It wasn’t fair to her, she deserved someone who wanted her when she was sober!... and if Shadow Weaver actually felt the way she had communicated in the shower then… then it wasn’t fair to Shadow Weaver either. Then Castaspella was using her as well.

Det havde været det sidste strå.

Hun havde fortalt Micah om sin beslutning, men ikke hvorfor. Aldrig hvorfor, what would he have said? Nej… kun at hun havde brug for at komme ud og være mere selvstændig, gøre noget for sig selv, væk fra familien. Micah havde været forstående, de ville jo stadig få set hinanden! Han var ked af at se hende gå, men han ønskede hvad der var bedst for hende!

Micah havde snakket om det med Angella, der havde taget nyheden helt pænt. Så havde Micah taget fat i Shadow Weaver. Ja, nu hvor Castaspella ikke skulle være her mere, ville hun så have Castaspella’s timer, eller skulle de se efter en ny lære? Jo, Castaspella ville ud og starte et liv op et andet sted, det var måske også på tide hun kom ud og mødte nogle nye mennesker, startede familie… sådan havde han sagt!

Castaspella så på de små hånddukker og sukkede svagt…. Hun satte forsigtigt den lille Castaspella dukke sammen med den lille Shadow Weaver dukke… they would at least have each other.

Med et vemodigt smil lukkede hun sin kuffert. Hun kunne ikke trække den længere.

Castaspella was leaving.

Maybe to start a family? Micah had hinted as much. There was little doubt who she would do that with. Emeralda. Or some other 'good person'. Yes, Shadow Weaver knew, why she wasn't good enough. Because she did what needed to be done. Because she was willing to fight.

Hun slog hånden hårdt ind i væggen på sit værelse. She wasn't weak, and for that she was punished. Always cast out, always abbandoned. And why? Because she wasn't afraid of the dirty work, the hard work, the dangerous wrk.

No. Not this time. Not without a fight. She would show Castaspella, what she really was leaving behind. Why she deserved her respekt, her trust .. and her love. A small voice at the back of her mind tried to tell her, that it wasn't that simple, that you couldn't earn love ... Ad another, much louder voice told her that she didn't need love. That it would only slow her down. Both of these voices was however silenced by the knowledge, that Castaspella did want her, had wanted her. She would not go into the fight empty handed.

Shadow Weaver bevægede sig hurtigt og bestemt ned af gangen. Mere end en elev blev skubbet ud af hendes vej, hvis de ikke selv var hurtige nok til at komme væk. Hendes mål var Castaspellas værelse, og hun ville ikke forsinkes.

Castaspella tog et sidste kig rundt på værelset, sikrede sig hun ikke havde efterladt noget... hun tog en dyb indånding og tog fat om håndtaget på sin kuffert. Nu var det nu. En ny begyndelse. Even if it hurt now, it wouldn't... she would come out better in the end, she knew this.

Shadow Weaver slog døren til hendes værelse op og gled ind i en sky af lilla skygger.

"Castaspella" hilste hun, kølligt bag masken. "I have heard the news" e.e

Castaspella så overrasket på hende. Shadow Weaver. Hun havde ikke regnet med at se hende inden, ikke regnet med den anden ville opsøge hende og.. følt sig fjollet over at sige farvel. They weren't friends...

".. yes" hun rynkede brynene og sank en klump, prøvede ikke at lyde påvirket "I suppose Micah talked to you about the lectures?" she seemed.. unhappy, perhaps at the idea of teaching kids without magic. Micah kunne vel finde en anden lære.

Shadow Weaver trådte bestemt hen til hende, hen til hende og ind i hendes space. "Yes, he did" bekræftede hun utilfredst. "I had to hear it from Micah"

Castaspella trådte instinktivt et skridt tilbage og sank en klump. Yes, she did sound angry. Very angry. "I thought it would be best." sagde hun og rettede ryggen lidt

Shadow Weaver fulgte efter hende, lod hende ikke stikke af. "Ah, of course. I shouldn't be surprised"

Castaspella pressede læberne sammen og lod blikket glide over den pokkers maske... ".. you wanted me to say goodbye?" a little guilty... but she really hadn't thought Shadow Weaver would care.....

Shadow Weaver tog igen et skridt tættere på hende og så hende ind i øjnene. "Surprisingly, I too have emotions"

Castaspella så igen overrasket på hende....... tør i munden. It was... nice. That Shadow Weaver had cared. Wanted to actually have a proper goodbye... unfortunate that she seemed to have hurt her feelings. Hun prøvede at samle sig lidt... lukkede kort øjnene og tog en dyb indånding. She had known saying goodbye to her would be hard, skipping it had seemed like a good option ".. you're right" hun åbnede øjnene og så besluttet på hende. She could do this. Hun rakte sin hånd ud til hende "I have enjoyed working with you." det var sandt, even if it shouldn't be "I wish you all the best. Goodbye." there, she said it!

Shadow Weaver fnøs og skubbede hendes hånd til side. "After all between us, a handshake?" spurgte hun og skubbede sig igen ind i hendes space, skubbede hende op af væggen. "Is that really how you want this to end?"

Castaspella gispede overrasket da hun ramte væggen. Hun rødmede dybt, hurtigt påmindet om deres nat sammen. Hun sank en klump "it seemed.. proper" prøvede hun.

"Proper?" gentog Shadow Weaver og knen øjnene sammen. "Nothing proper between us". Og i en hurtig bevægelse rev hun sin maske af. "Is there?"

Castaspella lod hurtigt blikket glide over hendes ansigt. Hun havde ikke regnet med at få lov til at se det igen, og nu da hun havde muligheden ville hun ikke spilde den. She wanted to remember every detail while she still could. "No" hviskede hun, there wasn't...

Det var ikke .. det svar Shadow Weaver havde ønsket, selvom det var det, hun havde lagt op til. Hun kneb øjene sammen, før hun lukkede dem helt og pressede deres læber sammen i et besiddende kys!

Castaspella spærrede øjnene op, før hun hurtigt lod dem glide i og kyssede med. Kyssede hende dybt og lidt desperat... this wasn't how she had wanted to say goodbye, she didn't want to say goodbye.. but she was not going to break this kiss.

Shadow Weaver pressede hende op mod væggen med sin krp, mens hun kyssede hende desperat og besiddende. Hvis dette var sidste gang, ville hun sikre sig at det blev husket. At Castaspella ville tænke på hende

The way Shadow Weaver was kissing her.. had her head spinning. Hun kyssede hende dybt og desperat, tried to make sure she'd remember everything.. her smell, her taste, how she felt against her..

Shadow Weaver stønnede mod hendes læber, mens hun prøvede at indprinte sig i Castaspellas minder, samtidig med, at hun prøvede at huske alt. Hun ville ikke glemme hende, lige så lidt som hun ville glemmes

Castaspella stønnede mod hendes læber... heart beating too fast, body feeling too warm, head spinning and emotions overflowing. This wasn't how she had planned it at all and she didn't want it to end.

Shadow Weaver blev holdt fast, draget ind af Castaspellas kys, hendes læber, hendes væsen .. she had dreamed of their time together ever since it happened, and now ... she got to feel her against her again. Hun lod sin tunge glide over hendes læber, mens hendes ene hånd strøg gennem hendes hår

Castaspella sukkede og skilte blidt læberne, imens hendes arme fandt vej rundt om Shadow Weaver og trak hende tættere mod sig so she couldn't dissapear..

Shadow Weaver sukkede tilfredst mod hende, mens hendes tunge fandt ind i hendes mund. Hun havde intet mod at blive holdt fast, havde ingen intentioner om at forsvinde

Castaspella snoede sin tunge om Shadow Weaver's... this wasn't going well with her plans...